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A Wrinkle in Time and Exogeiny

2025-11-18T00:10:15Z

I recently remembered one of my early favorite books in elementary school, called a Wrinkle in Time. But after 20 years, I've forgotten what it was about. I only remembered it's title, two scenes, and that it was a science fiction novel. But I didn't really remember why I enjoyed it. Well, it has space travel, telepathic aliens, and time weirdness. By analyzing what my interests were back then, I can use it to better understand myself today. I often think about the evidence, extent, or traits that my exogeiny could be traced to from back then. Of course, I'd have been interested in these things back then. My interests don't seem to just develop over from nothing, out of nowhere. It's also a given that I had an interest in time, space and infinity even before I read this book, with these topics being central themes.

I looked into the synoposis and the wikipedia page for the characters of the book and it feels like a slap in the face. Between the telepathy, great, ancient evils and big 'brains' that possesses within a collective hivemind., it's actually very similar to my source. I can make very direct comparisons between IT, and the overmind, and the 'black thing' and Amon. The man with red eyes particularly scares me because like it was in Starcraft, was a vector of possession, sickness and madness. A pawn to be controlled by a greater, more universal evil, as it also was with IT. Of course, a book I liked would have themes related to my modern-day current alterhumanity and fears. Silly me.

Some more information about the other characters and its themes are beyond the cut. I also go a bit into religion and race.

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Acceptance

2025-09-28T07:03:27Z

Trying to behave in a human way and having to 'accept' or 'acknowledge' my humanity is pointless. There is nothing for me to accept because there is nothing there. It doesn't exist, and this visible form is very illusionary to begin with from a philosophical stand point. It's always been a mask. If I'm truly going to liberate myself, I need to accept the fact that being told that I'm also a human ends up diminishing the vastness of my experiences, because of all of these abnormalities. Humans do not get these shifts, memories, sensations, etc. To say they do is a lie. And thinking in this way is beneficial to my mental health because it puts less pressure and stress on needing to behave in a normal and typical way. It makes me feel less like a freak and more normal when I look at it all through the context of my species. I need to come to terms with my shifts and my experiences and accept that I have them, not my humanity. And not in a way where I ignore them.

Ignoring them has been very harmful to me in the long run, while acknowledging that I'm not human removes unnecessarily hurdles and barriers.

I know trans analogies that compare species to gender is often used, but I have something different to compare it to; my experiences as a nerazim.(I've been at this for two lifetimes, yay.) The other khalai protoss thought that we didn't want to be protoss and hated ourselves and them. We separated our selves from that religion and cut the nerve cords, which in their brains, was what made you a protoss, which is a very biological essential view. I can understand why they think we hated them. But it was never about hatred for me. Of course, I can't speak about the others, only for myself. But there's a quote from a novel about this exile that surmises my point well: "Nothing in them desires revolution and disharmony. They merely wish to keep themselves to themselves. Is that worthy of death?"

I want to do things on my own terms, and I've found an effective way of doing so in this current existence I'm in.

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Animism and Imagithropy

2025-09-21T07:15:48Z

I already spoke about my krokul paratypy and my Argus parahearth home here, so this will be a continuation of that. This identity developed through roleplay. Through role play and writing, it began to develop how I saw the elementals and the planet Argus itself, even out of character. As such, I believe the term imagithrope is also suitable to describe my connection to shamanism and Argus. Do note that I already had certain feelings from Argus, and the krokul, but roleplaying had made them stronger. As I mentioned in one of my other essays about a separate topic, "the krokul have always sparked my heart in a very certain way. It's to the point that I consider the Krokul a paratype because of their cultural similarities to the Nerazim. When I saw the artwork where Nobundo saw his old self in the water's reflection, 12 year old me really felt that. It was a whole decade before learning about alterhumanity."

I will also talk about my skepticism with Abrahamic religions under the cut, as this goes hand in hand with my animist beliefs. I will be deconstructing it. So, if this skepticism bothers the reader, don't read further.

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About isolation and Purpose

2025-09-20T06:38:50Z

(Posts from tumblr)

Over the years, I've been hoping to meet someone of my species. But so far, I've come out empty-handed. I know that there's no guarantee I'd even get along with them, but it would still be nice to know that I'm not alone and not the only one here trying to survive. After this entry, I won't be talking about it again out of not wanting to repeat myself.

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Things I still need to write about:

2025-09-19T22:52:28Z

-My feelings on shamanism/animism and how it connects to my connection to krokul
-An unfiltered take on the alterhuman-esque takes in SC lore, (spooky but also funny. The only other alterhuman rep of my species, lol)
-My connection to the game Jedi: Fallen Order than can be considered tale hearted, and it's a very important story to me. I don't say that lightly at all.
-Talk about my flickers from WoW from playing it since 2007. (Feeling old)

Due to the extremely personal nature of the second and third topics, I'll likely make it access locked. I don't feel comfortable talking about certain exomemories where anyone can read them.

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Brain weirdness

2025-08-20T05:10:05Z

(A combination of two posts from tumblr)

I feel that I have been born with certain knowledge and instincts inside of my brain, in a way that science can't completely explain. There's such a huge gap between what humans know about neurology and the mind in the present day compared to the other sciences.

As I mentioned before, psychiatry and neurology are still in their dark ages, with scientists only able to hypothesize or guess how or why the brain does certain things, with no definite answer on a lot of phenomena.

Cw for mentions of unreality and doubt:

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Alien grief

2025-08-20T04:59:06Z

(Reposted from tumblr)

I have the sense that when I do feel grief or sadness, it's inherently in a nonhuman way. I don't know how to explain this exactly. It's this feeling that although humans and my species grieve in a similar way, it has a different subjective feeling to it. Both grieve over death and loss, but the inherent feelings tied to those things contain a different context. The grief I experience is informed and influenced through this alterhuman context.

A sort of a negative post:

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Sapience & Nonhumanity

2025-06-14T22:28:05Z

(reposted from tumblr)

I view my level of sapience as something completely inhuman, rather than something inherently human, unlike the majority of orthohumans. But my focus on sapience makes me not feel like a therian at all, even if I have some feline instincts from who knows where, and despite my nonhuman phantom limbs of having digitigrade, clawed limbs.

And the older I get, the more focused I am on gaining back the knowledge I believe I forgot, through memories and noemata. So, being knowledgeable and having a lot of memories of things to fall back on gives me some species euphoria. Especially since I feel like I lost some of my intelligence being here. And the thought of losing even more knowledge and intelligence scares me.

(As a disclaimer, I know that intelligence is a very hard thing to measure and that there are different types of intelligence, but please bear with me. I am aware it's not a black and white sort of thing, where either something has intelligence or it does not.) Even though there are some things I intuitively understand as a concept, there are still things my brain has trouble understanding, primarily with things involving numbers. And it makes me feel dysphoric.

I feel feral sometimes, but after thinking more about it, I now believe it's in more of an intelligent non-'animal' nonhuman, way. I suppose "alien" would fit the word well for others to understand what I mean. I think this is the major reason that I just don't feel like a therian anymore. I don't vibe with having unrestrained instincts, especially with instincts that do not include having a high level of sapience.

There's also the fact that animality is a social construct. Humans are objectively animals and fall under the kingdom animalia, but in society, they don't think of themselves as animals, and being called an animal often implies thoughtlessness and sheer instinct.

Coming from a species of arrogant aliens, I am trying really hard not to fall under that stereotype and am checking each sentence twice to make sure that it doesn't come across as rude or arrogant, because that is never my intention, especially when I'm talking about my own personal experiences that have solely to do with me and my existence in this place. I'd argue that even my species physically count as animals too, in the same way a sapient creature with certain traits that would fall under 'animal.' An autotrophic animal, but still an animal, even though different planets have different evolutionary pathways. I do sometimes joke around and call them plants, but nah, we aren't, really.

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Alien Invasion Movies & Hindsight

2025-06-14T21:55:06Z

(Reposted from tumblr)

I watched a couple of alien invasion movies, growing up. It was never a huge interest of mine, but I'd watch and enjoy them when the chance came up. I was scared of aliens and all of the technology that they used, with a few exceptions which I will talk about later. When I first realized I was an alien species, I asked myself, "if I really am a nonhuman alien, why would these movies scare me so much?" Under the cut, I'll talk about some of my early childhood experiences with alien movies.

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On alienness

2025-06-14T07:52:28Z

In my everyday life, I view the term alien as more of a quality that someone or something has, even though I would normally define it to other people as any organism that exists outside of earth.

But being as inhuman as I am, I understand how earth centric such a definition is. On another world, sapient life would call earthlings alien because they exist off world and have a different evolutionary history.

Over time, I'm realizing that it's becoming less that I feel alien and more that the life on earth itself is alien. Life here has been normalized to be a certain way from an early age to me. It's because of this that it's taken so long for me to understand this. The way I interpret my experiences is that I was born here, forgot nearly everything, and am trying to relearn old knowledge and old ways of thinking or doing things. I want to know things, and I find it important that I do so. I strongly feel that I lived before and that I'm not new at living. I'm new at living in a human society however, and I can't fully adjust.

My phantom limbs, my sensory synthaesia, and the way my thoughts form are only alien and strange to a human. If I was back with my kind right now, all of this would be the norm. It would be the human experience that would be strange and alien. To me, it feels that way.

The way humans feel romantic and sexual attraction feels as foreign to me as it must be for them to experience what I experience. I feel less strange if I'm myself in a vacuum. It's when I'm with others that I feel strange, for whatever reason that may be. So I am alien in an earthling's definition of the word. I call myself alien as a frame of reference for others to quickly understand what I'm talking about. I don’t personally see it that way all the time. I know my habits and my brain. It's normal. It would be weird for me to be more human. In that case, I would be becoming more alien.

I know that if I tell most orthohumans all of this, they'd think I'm strange and eccentric, and yes-alien. So I don't say anything to them unless they are very close friends and can fully trust them. And reaching that point is rare. But I can only go so long with masking and pretending to be normal around others. You can never hide from yourself.

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Paratypal Connections with the Krokul and Argus

2025-06-13T06:15:01Z

I believe the mutant krokul draenei to be a paratype of mine because of the many thematic similarities with the Nerazim protoss, or dark templar. My mind also seems to connect the draenei home world of Argus to Aiur. I feel connected to Argus because of its similarity to Aiur, making it a para hearth home. Even their crystalline technology and the shapes of their buildings have a very similar design to protoss structures.

Another interesting coincidence is that the name 'Draenei' directly translates to "Exiled Ones," while the word Nerazim in the protoss language roughly translates to "The Exiled." This theme surrounding exile might have been another reason that I related to them so much as someone with a Nerazim background. This was also before I knew where those feelings came from. It would have been another 10 years before I discovered the primary identity.

(Note: None of them were mutated krokul at the point of this escape from Argus, and not all draenei are krokul. As much as I like normal draenei, I don't relate to them as heavily as I do with the krokul.)

I've already mentioned some of these themes and what it means to be a dark templar in this essay, so it may help to read that first in order to get a better idea of what I'm talking about, especially if you're unfamiliar with Starcraft lore. I have no noemata about the krokul or Argus other than a few head canons I came up with for creative reasons. So all that I know is by what's shown and implied in game. These feelings are also explored through the role play of my krokul characters.

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About my physical nonhumanity

2025-05-30T00:37:26Z

I've first spoke about my physical nonhumanity with this post, calling it philosophical only. And since making this post, I realize that I also mean it in a more literal way, and that the difference between literally physical and philosophically physical is incredibly confusing and vague to me. I instead see it as a vague area.

I don't like how some who are literally physical imply that the philosophically physical ones view it as something watered down, more shallow and as having the capacity to experience things that the metaphorical/philosophical ones can never hope to understand. And I also dislike the idea that literal nonhumans are taking it too far, and that the only way it can actually be experienced is through a philosophical lens. I don't really see anything good coming out of separating and gatekeeping the two as separate things. As I've already written on the subject, "by making the claim that you are physically nonhuman in a philosophical way, you are still addressing the body as physically nonhuman. And from there, they can modify the body or do whatever they want after that point. There are differences between the two, but I think specific similarities between the two are being overlooked." Someone who is literally physical and someone who is philosophically physical both attribute their body as something not human, for example.

I don't know where the philosophical part of my identity starts and where the literal part of it ends, or if there is even a difference between those two things. This is because I view all of existence and consciousness through a philosophical lens. It feels pointless to try to label my experiences as one or the other.

Note: As a warning. there is a bit of disassociation and unreality talk in the next paragraph in the midst of my philosophical babbling.

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The past 15 years

2025-05-29T01:34:30Z

(Reposted from tumblr)

I managed to catch up with an old friend and it made me realize a few things. It's funny how little things seem to have changed from my teenager years ~15 years ago, despite all of the breakthroughs that I went through since then with this state of being. I was good friends with someone at the time, before I knew anything about nonhumanity, kinity and the like. Despite it all, I'm some how the same person with the same personality, likes and dislikes as back then. Before I caught up with my old friend, I expected myself to be so completely aloof and different because of how differently I perceive myself now. Because now, I fully know and acknowledge that I'm an entity masquerading as a human. To my surprise, I don't behave that much differently since the time I was a teenager, despite all of these situations (excluding the current horrors of being an adult now-that one is new. I am much more tired with life now.)

Back then, I thought I was just a normal human, even though I've always had animalistic, feral tendencies. I felt like I wasn't human and despised being one, but I just ignored it. But fast forward to the present, and despite being so blindly oblivious to my sapient alien roots even when I was 15 years old, I still feel like the same exact person. Even if I didn't know I was just performing humanity as a disguised alien creature when I was a teenager because I completely forgot about it. I now have a completely different philosophical and spiritual understanding of the universe around me that differs from what I was taught in christian religion, and I do view human culture differently now than I used to before I entered my 20s, but I still treat the other humans I've already known back then the same way as I did before my awakening to this. I guess it's just that treat myself differently, even though I am always hiding it from others.

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Wild, miscellaneous noemata

2025-03-24T19:51:34Z

Edited 7/12/25
This is a list of a few strange experiences that I find noteworthy enough to mention. It will be listed as bullet points below. Some of these notes were originally written in 'Existing as a Protoss' essay, but have decided it was best to have it as its own entry.

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Sacred Shadow's Epitaph

2025-03-13T04:51:17Z

This is relevant to the essay I just posted on my perspectives of the Khala. This poem that I've written and sent to the Inky Paws zine last year is directly based on my experiences fighting those that were possessed, as I have mentioned in the essay. I mentioned a bit more of the context behind this poem on my tumblr for anyone curious.

The memory writhes.

It transcends millenia and lifetimes.

It warns and I still understand.

It is worse to forget a fallen friend than it is to remember their terrible end. At least then the sacrifices meant something. I promised to never forget despite this terror of knowing. An endless void emerges from the oblivion between universes. An unnatural, inky blackness darker than anything in the known universe is the start and end of the reaches of your understanding. Your first and last warning within the span of a second.

Witness within two crimson eyes the sum of all hatred, anger and evil of reality compacted into a point smaller than a neutron star but heavier than a black hole. A mortal mind was not made to withstand or experience it. The frays of the mind may find itself unraveling. Determination trained me to withstand this forever. This few second glimpse into infinite madness offers a glimpse into utter devastation; devastation the likes that this universe has never seen before. Something once thought elusive that causes such infinite suffering beyond any apprehension is a force that must not be ignored.

A fallen entity of infinite power, the creator of all that seeks to undo all that has been done.It wishes to deliver the universe back into emptiness. It hates for the aim of hating. It wishes to see you suffer solely for existing. It is beyond reasoning. Running only prolongs your suffering. Begging does nothing, praying yields no results because there are no other gods.This was the creature you were praying for all along since the beginning of time.This entity laughs at your pleas, feeding into its endless disease like an unnatural war machine. It grows in strength with its sadistic cackles. Nothing will save this universe but yourselves.

This entity can be seen in the minds of others. Their screams for help are unheard in the presence of such a primordial evil which engulfs everything they ever were.

It incinerates them from the inside out. Instead, the monster screams through them all in unison. This sickening shadow burns all. By all costs, such a malevolent entity must be destroyed before it metastasizes. The blemish of this ancient existence must be cauterized from all traces of permanence. All the pain and suffering it has caused must be reflected back towards the sender a hundredfold.

Severing yourself from this creature allows you to escape this nightmare but allows you to enter a different one: reality. It lets you see the puppetmaster in the eye and not above you holding your strings. It no longer uses its own voice to speak through you even as you glimpse into the red haze of primal anger. All of this knowledge gained from one glimpse into this creature’s realm. No amount of horror dominates this obscene vision. The infinite abomination has no equal rival.

The veteran mind is forever inoculated against this insanity. Immune to these terrors in mind. Is this knowledge worse to the beholder or the beheld? This question can never be answered. Only a will of unhuman steel can send you through.

Too many died. But I saw the end. A curse or a blessing? A pity that I do not remember more, the only survivor here to share this cursed knowing.

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A Nerazim's Perspective on the Khala (dun dun dun)

2025-03-13T04:06:38Z

Updated 3/21/25

As I have mentioned elsewhere, I have a fear of things resembling collectives or hiveminds, in any sort of way. Despite this, I have these faint feelings of the familiarity that the interconnectedness of the Khala brought to the protoss, the species specific psionic emotional link. It's a faint ancestral memory even though I was never actually part of it. The Khala allowed everyone to share their inner most thoughts and feelings, while keeping their own core sense of self, yet it still irks me. Although, it is possible to get lost in it at times.

This familiarity is inherent with being a protoss, to my disappointment. And this gives me many mixed feelings. To quickly summarize its history, the protoss were found by a highly advanced progenitor species, (the Xel'naga), and were genetically manipulated and given the Khala to bring about an end to a cycle. In the end, this resulted in those connected to the Khala to become possessed by an evil entity. I will talk about this later on in this essay. Because before we get to the end of the Khala, I have to discuss where the dark templar, or Nerazim as they've called themselves later on come into this, hi.

Small cw for mentions of religious trauma and possession.

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Time Weirdness

2025-03-12T00:36:50Z

Repost of something I wrote last year

I have a good grasp on the temporal weirdness that goes on in sci fi settings. Usually, if the sciencey subjects are not about something in these areas, it goes over my head. I think I studied time physics in another lifetime and the basic ideas of what I knew passed over. In my case, Nerazim oracles studied these phenomena and had precognition abilities relating to the future. It is weird how I'm able to grasp these highly specific concepts but not everything else. My brain likes to be conveniently bad at anything involving numbers or mathematical equations, which I seriously hate.

Based on my own weird experiences with having many dreams that successfully predict events of the next day, (and at least one vision of seeing something happen seconds before it actually did). If I have a dream of seeing someone I never think about or see, I will get news involving them within the next few days, for example. It leads me to believe that I was in Oracle circles, but never became a pilot.

I've had philosophical questions on time and infinity since I was about 5 years old. And every time I thought about it, it would drive me crazy trying to figure out how time started and what forever felt like. It wasn't until I was in my teenage years that I thought about the universe going through cycles and how it answered these questions. It wasn't until my 20s that I learned that these beliefs existed in other cultures. Of course, my source has these themes of infinite cycles in it as well. And as if that wasn't enough, there was an order in my society dedicated to understanding and controlling time, including precognition. The implications of my experiences can't be any clearer.

I honestly don't think time is linear like it's explained in classical physics, otherwise these experiences wouldn't be possible. Can I prove this with math and numbers? Hell no. But it's the only explanation I have. This happens to me way too much for it to be considered a coincidence. I believe that time is a circle, its ending is its beginning. And that the future already happened and that the past will happen. Still, I believe that enforcing your will power can change what is supposed to happen, so I don't have a fatalist mindset.

I think my prior life was centuries in the future in another universe despite it being in my own personal past. I really do feel that I’m an entity lost in time and space, and it sucks.

In a spiritual sense, at least, time is really an illusion, and it works differently than it does in everyday, physical life. You can't physically time travel, but I believe energy/spirit/consciousness bypasses this barrier. It's not something you can do with physical mass with current technology.

Disclaimer that I'm not saying any of this as objective fact, it's just my interpretation of what's going on.

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On Humanity

2025-03-11T23:35:12Z

I have already written this some time ago, but have decided to repost it as its own thing.

The term ‘humanity’ means very little to me. I dislike that it’s used as a measurement to determine how much of a good person you are. And if you are a cruel person, then that means you are no longer a human. Inversely, there’s also the racists and fascists who believe that humans from a different ethnicity, nationality, gender, or sexual orientation from theirs aren’t really human and use that as an excuse to take their rights away. This tells me that society in general holds humanity as a social construct as well. And that if you aren’t human, you’re viewed as inferior.

I tell myself that I lack humanity, but not in the way society would tell you that means. Altruism exists in other species as well, not just humans. Human centrism annoys me. In my entire life for as long as I can remember, I never was content with being a human. I’ve always wanted to be something else. I think that this sort of thinking and wishing was a bit rare, or something you grew out of. It’s a certainty that I will never grow out of this feeling. The human form/body has always been a source of repulsion to me, possibly contributing to the fact that I’m ace as I mentioned earlier.

Human intelligence seems lacking to me, my own included. I feel this ‘limit’ on my intelligence, where anything past a certain point is too confusing for me to understand, or too complicated to do it correctly, such as chemistry equations. I did consider myself a human for a long time, but that was because I didn’t know it was possible to be anything else. Even though I pretend that I think I’m a normal human to strangers, I never actually consider myself one.

I care about humans, because of the ones I know and because I don’t want them to suffer, I don’t want the eugenicists and other bad people to win, despite my physical repulsion of being a human. As a protoss, I think I was a xenobiologist of sorts, and never really liked extinctions of an entire species so much. (I think that’s an understandable dislike.) I can’t stop thinking that humans are some strange species now. I’m not sure how much of this feeling was present before I discovered I was a protoss. I can’t make estimations of how it was a few years ago after all of the things that happened to me after that. It would be biased.

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Discovering my paratype first

2024-11-03T03:56:47Z

I connected to vulcans, before discovering my main protoss identity. And I now consider vulcans to be a paratype despite learning about them first.

To explain what I'm talking about, I will need to start at the beginning. About ten years ago, before I knew anything about alterhumanity but knowing already that I specifically felt nonhuman or animal, I remember getting interested in Star Trek. And although I vaguely knew what protoss were at the time, I didn't look too deeply into them even though my thoughts at the time towards them were "I find them interesting. I should read more about them in the future", and you can guess what happened once I looked into them more closely and looked past their in game appearances. Although I was always interested in science fiction, I feel that getting into Star Trek made me look into the genre more closely in general. And as I was watching the movies and series, I began to develop an attachment to vulcans. So when I first looked into Starcraft, the knowledge I pulled from to understand the historical events and telepathic abilities were from the vulcans.

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Existing as a protoss

2024-08-12T03:46:14Z

Updated 6/12/25

For all intents and purposes, I’m on my own. If there are other protoss, I can’t find them. I have no idea if my experiences vary or if they’re similar to theirs. The main reason I was inspired to write this essay, was not just to bring my experiences out there, but to help anyone questioning whether or not they are a protoss. Despite the difficulties it brings me in this life and without sounding too emotional, I find the experience itself to be a gift. The secondary reason is putting this out there for anyone curious enough to read it. I expect most readers of this essay will have no prior understanding as to what a protoss is, or a minimal understanding of one, so I will try to elaborate when it's needed. As of posting this essay onto my dreamwidth, this is the only alterhuman essay on what it's like to be one on the internet.

To start, protoss are an alien species from a video game called Starcraft. It would fall under a fictionkin identity, but I personally don’t like to refer to myself as one. To me, the game is more like a piece of media based on true events, where some of the events may have been exaggerated to make it more cinematic. Excluding cosmic horror, (which also feels real to me when I read it, and contains aspects of it within Starcraft), this connection is much different than any of my other relations to different pieces of fiction. It also impacts the way I interact with the game. Although I don't feel particularly euphoric and happy when I play as a protoss, I can get a bit dysphoric when I'm commanding another species' forces. And there are some campaign missions I find myself unable to do without getting enraged or upset.

It still definitely falls under the otherkin umbrella. Since 2017, I believe to be a non canon Nerazim protoss, and live as one in my past life, and that life significantly impacts my current one, to the point where it feels like a continuation of that life. The Nerazim are a faction of protoss that were exiled for not wanting to be part of an empathetic telepathic link.I will touch upon this later on in the essay. In essence, I feel as if I'm an amnesiac protoss. I started this life thinking I was human, ignoring my faint instincts, impressions and dreams until I learned where it originated from. I react to things as a protoss would.

Due to the length of the essay, I have organized the essay into these different sections: 'On How it 'Started',' 'On Culture,' 'On Connection', 'On Language,' 'On Mental Shifts','On Habits, 'On Phantom Shifts,' & 'On Memories.'

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Some heavy metaphysics

2021-11-08T23:56:55Z

Here I’ll talk about my spiritual beliefs on how it’s possible to be something that doesn’t necessarily exist here as well as a hypothesis on how all of this is possible. Yes, I’m aware that this can be explained psychologically and I’m not discounting a psychological explanation, but that isn’t what I’m discussing here. Under the cut, I’ll be talking about hard core metaphysics in great detail and how I use it to explain how things work in a spiritual sense.

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Philosophical beliefs

2021-11-08T23:50:16Z

A repost from what I wrote on tumblr:

I feel a little confused with the focus on spiritual vs psychological. I focus much more on the philosophical perspective of what it means to be and identify as something. This doesn’t completely fall neatly under spiritual or psychological, and can cover both at the same time. I also thought about biological essentialism the past few months and how your biological body shouldn’t be the only thing that defines you and how this ties to a internal view of self.

What I concluded is that since it’s such a subjective experience it can’t be falsified like materialistic things can. What matters with feeling nonhuman is your perception of being nonhuman and how it shapes your life and how you interact with the world currently. It is about viewing yourself as something different than what you currently are despite your physical body. The only way someone can know if they feel nonhuman is through their own mind. What causes them to feel this way isn’t always important. This is focused on what the observer feels is true to the way they add meaning to themselves and how it influences their perceptions on a lot of different things.

This wouldn’t only fall under psychological because the reason someone may feel this way can also be a result of spiritual or archetypal reasons, or neither. Or possibly, they aren’t sure why they feel this way and only know that they just do.

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