Alterhuman Blog

I looked into the synoposis and the wikipedia page for the characters of the book and it feels like a slap in the face. Between the telepathy, great, ancient evils and big 'brains' that possesses within a collective hivemind., it's actually very similar to my source. I can make very direct comparisons between IT, and the overmind, and the 'black thing' and Amon. The man with red eyes particularly scares me because like it was in Starcraft, was a vector of possession, sickness and madness. A pawn to be controlled by a greater, more universal evil, as it also was with IT. Of course, a book I liked would have themes related to my modern-day current alterhumanity and fears. Silly me.

Some more information about the other characters and its themes are beyond the cut. I also go a bit into religion and race.

Repost of something I wrote last year

I have a good grasp on the temporal weirdness that goes on in sci fi settings. Usually, if the sciencey subjects are not about something in these areas, it goes over my head. I think I studied time physics in another lifetime and the basic ideas of what I knew passed over. In my case, Nerazim oracles studied these phenomena and had precognition abilities relating to the future. It is weird how I'm able to grasp these highly specific concepts but not everything else. My brain likes to be conveniently bad at anything involving numbers or mathematical equations, which I seriously hate.

Based on my own weird experiences with having many dreams that successfully predict events of the next day, (and at least one vision of seeing something happen seconds before it actually did). If I have a dream of seeing someone I never think about or see, I will get news involving them within the next few days, for example. It leads me to believe that I was in Oracle circles, but never became a pilot.

I've had philosophical questions on time and infinity since I was about 5 years old. And every time I thought about it, it would drive me crazy trying to figure out how time started and what forever felt like. It wasn't until I was in my teenage years that I thought about the universe going through cycles and how it answered these questions. It wasn't until my 20s that I learned that these beliefs existed in other cultures. Of course, my source has these themes of infinite cycles in it as well. And as if that wasn't enough, there was an order in my society dedicated to understanding and controlling time, including precognition. The implications of my experiences can't be any clearer.

I honestly don't think time is linear like it's explained in classical physics, otherwise these experiences wouldn't be possible. Can I prove this with math and numbers? Hell no. But it's the only explanation I have. This happens to me way too much for it to be considered a coincidence. I believe that time is a circle, its ending is its beginning. And that the future already happened and that the past will happen. Still, I believe that enforcing your will power can change what is supposed to happen, so I don't have a fatalist mindset.

I think my prior life was centuries in the future in another universe despite it being in my own personal past. I really do feel that I’m an entity lost in time and space, and it sucks.

In a spiritual sense, at least, time is really an illusion, and it works differently than it does in everyday, physical life. You can't physically time travel, but I believe energy/spirit/consciousness bypasses this barrier. It's not something you can do with physical mass with current technology.

Disclaimer that I'm not saying any of this as objective fact, it's just my interpretation of what's going on.